Regret

On the balcony,
Looking into the distance.
In the silence
My day dissolves
Into thoughts.
I need words!
But all I get
Images,
Figures that huant:
‘I shouldn’t have’
‘Why did I.. ‘
I bit my lips,
Tighten my fist,
Stay put.
It all washes over me,
Soo cold.
When the words come
I write them down,
Then read—
And shudder.